mi-ai intunecat sufletul!ai picurat cerneala pe el!si cerneala nu mai iese…cerneala nu se sterge! m-ai redescoperit in inima ta mult prea tarziu, nu mai sunt curata in suflet, m-ai murdarit si acum urasc! si nu mai cred in tine !plang cerneala in fiecare seara si tot nu trece.ai omorat iubirea noastra .acum sti ca ma iubesti si te iubesc si eu dar…nu te iert!adio.Belle
implinire sau dezamagire????
Posted by: soarealbastru on: octombrie 24, 2009
totul e pierdut…incerc sa fiu tare si sa nu mai plang dupa ce am plans si acum multe luni si in fiecare zi.azi sunt hotarata sa incep o noua viata,fara tine!azi imi doresc sa ma simt bine fara sa iubesc ,nu mai vreau sa ma iubesti nici tu,mi-a ajuns,iubirea asta m-a imbolnavit. intru pe mereu acelasi el si…parca n-a trecut nici macar o zi de la ultimul nostru sarut pe care abia mi-l mai amintesc…si iar aceiasi invitatie pe care am refuzat-o mereu…”hai la mine!!!”…FUCK IT!!! Vin !! “stai sa-mi iau liber si vin,pe bune ca vin!!” vorbim, parca suntem cei mai buni prieteni, ma simt implinita asa.mi-e dor de tine dar nu are rost sa incercam ce acum 3 ani nu a mers…vin sa fac dragoste cu tine, mi-e dor sa simt …nici nu mai stiu cum a fost…a trecut prea mult timp!!!
De ieri nu a trecut decat o zi, am vorbit iar cu acelasi el, totul e perfect.Insista sa merg mai repede la el!ma bucur ,e frumos sentimentul asta…
Ma suna…de ce ma suni?la naiba vreau sa o terminam…ma duc relaxata la intalnire…cel putin asa vreau sa par…dar sunt nervoasa pe tine!!!imi spui sa…WTF??n-am auzit bine???vrei sa fie mai serios??sa incercam ?
Da….imi ofera tot ce mi-am dorit vreodata de la viata, de la el….TOTUL!!!
Dar oare imi mai doresc asta?sunt fericita??? simt ca ceva nu e la locul lui?oare chiar a venit prea tarziu???
Ti-am zis si tie…si iar te-am dezamagit…ce puteai sa-mi spui decat…fii fericita??multumesc…dragul meu…mereu pentru mine…
so…what should i choose? MR. Big or the russian guy?? BELLE
How ’bout a round of applause?
Posted by: soarealbastru on: octombrie 8, 2009
La multi ani Soarealbastru!!!! Am implinit un anisor 
Locked in heaven
Posted by: soarealbastru on: octombrie 2, 2009
My thoughts are running towards a place where you are still the perfect man.. you are still the one I fell in love with. Memories rewind in my mind telling me that the notion of “us” changed while we were to busy building our dream… and we focused so much on the future that be forgot to feel the present and to enjoy today! You needed time,I gave it to you… you needed space I gave that too… you needed silence I stood quiet and alone feeding myself with images from the past. Fooling myself that one day everything will be like it used to be.
But we started to grow apart…one phone call per day, one sex night per week,to tired to talk about us…” I love you” bla bla bla… “I want you” bla bla bla… you’re like a robot shut up!!! I know this but I don’t want to hear only this over and over again. How about… What’s on your mind? Are you ok? No really tell me…do you feel loved?(NO..I just know I am,but I don’t feel you…us…the way I used to) Where is the happiness that we used to have,that we used to feel from the little things? Where are the little things that we used to share??? Why don’t you stick around more that one out of seven days??
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I miss last year…and the one before that…cause even if I were 300 km away I could have you for 36 ours in a raw at weekends….now I’m only 15 minutes away and you never make time for me 
I miss us so much…I miss the other you so much.
Tears come down my face begging for you to appear at my window with your devlish smile…you know,the one I used to adore ,but it was only beautiful because you were outside my window… I see the “other” devlish smile sometimes but it’s not the same.That one makes me feel like I’m beneath you..the one that reminds me that you are not the same man I fell in love with. You were a “menace” to others but you loved me more that you loved yourself…now you’re just weak and you say thnigs that hurt, like : ” I can give up a lot of stuff ..and you are one off them”
So all I can do is hope and cry and dream that one day you will come back to our secret place…the place where love qonquers all!
I miss you,Heaven
soarealbastru